esson 8a: Sword Quest Spreadesson 8a: Sword Quest Spread
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Although I laid the cards bottom to top, left to right, then center, I read them in lesson order.
When I was in the
Stone Castle, I made two lists: rocking
and rowing the boat. Rocking the boat was caused by following my
impulse/instinct/desire over all else. Rowing the boat happened when
I tried to align my wishes with those of others and tame my
self-interest. Do the right thing.
What supports me in dealing with
the influence of my past decisions and behaviors is knowing that
these things crafted my character and forged my judgment. I wouldn't
be who I am without every bit of my past, for good or ill.
What hinders me is emotions
attached to my family, especially my mother (grail/cup=womb).
Naturally, the stuff I have the most trouble putting behind me is
stuff I did wrong to those I
The Stone Maiden advised me to
"put it on." This expression has some connections for me. The first
time I heard it was a Bob Marley song with that title. It is also the
theme of two Bible
What hinders me is Stone
Five--how hard it is to maintain these virtues during times of
adversity, disappointment, insecurity. It's hard to row in a storm.
The center card of
Sword Two says a lot to me. The woods on
either side remind me of the different halves of the brain. How much
influence does each half have in one's behavior, decision-making
process, &c.? The
serpent enticed Eve to
follow him into the forest of desire. But the path goes down the
*center.*
What would help me in going down
the center would be to shed some old skin, wash out some old blood,
toss the shell, and get rid of some unnecessary things in my life.
Look through the holy stone.
What hinders me is Grail Six?
Nostalgia, emotional attachment to things past: memories, history,
origins and sources,
At
Sword Three, I lost my outer coat. This
was similar to when I met the Washer at the
Ford, and threw my shell in the ford. So this position represents
what I need to shed/lose/get rid of, which is Talesin. Ooh, this is
so accurate. I want to know and share the stories behind everything.
The story-teller, the historian, the pack rat, and each trinket and
each piece of paper has its own hi/story. My man has shown me logical
ways of dealing with 'stuff,' but it just doesn't work for me.
I'm hindered from overcoming this
"creative preservationist" [like that one?] behavior by my great
enjoyment of Show and Tell, my instinctual drive, my craft to create
and express something that others might enjoy reading, hearing,
seeing or knowing.
The
White Hart completes the center column
and the decision-making theme. This card signifies the choices of the
future.
The issue of choice is shown
again in the supporting card of Stone Two. I remember when I did
Lesson 45, and that I could tackle any
path as long as I had the right shoes. Actually, I see this, together
with the crossing card of the Star, as indicating the up and down
sides of knowing that everything will turn out alright, either way I
choose. There's a risk of being wishy-washy, or wishing rather than
deciding and acting.
I found it interesting that the supporting cards of the center row were all majors. Also that the crossing cards in the center column are emotional/spiritual. Certainly true that I make most of my decisions with my heart, rather than my head. This is related to the comparison of conscience and conscious: the conscience always says to do what you know is right; the conscious thinks foremost of self. My dad used to say: "You've *got* a brain; why don't you *use* it?" He also used to tell me that I was smart, but had no common sense. But what that all means is that I don't behave based on *logic,* rather impulse/desire/ID!
I'm relying on the Quest for the Sword to help me learn more balanced judgment.
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